Rating: PG15
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Feed Back: Please be kind it is my first fanfic. Should it be continued??
Set during season 4. Spike has a chip, and he doesn't love Buffy.
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He woke like he did every evening, hoping that it had all been a bad dream, a nightmare. He couldn't kill but couldn't live either. Just another night in Sunnnyhell. He didn't want to stay but where could a defanged vampire go? He lit his cigarette and took a deep drag, wondering what the night will hold for him. Probably the same as every night, he needed more blood, and unless he could find some willing human, he would have to visit the butchers.
"Oh wouldn't be nice to find a blood bank that let lowly vampires do withdrawals." he said out loud.
He slowly walked toward the butchers, remembering the good old days, with Angel/Darla and Dru. His kills had been violent and plentiful, just the way he liked them. Things had been perfect until that bloody gypy's spell. He suddenly stopped walking, "If they could bloody curse that big poof, why couldn't a spell stop the pain in my head?"
Now who can I ask to help me....Red or her gal pal would never do it..........I could try myself! Who am I kidding, I hate reading.......it would take me a millenium. That old gezza, Doc, he would do. Spike got up and dressed was off to see the strange little man in the shop.
When he arrived, there was no one to be found.
"Can I help you? Of course I can. I know what you want but are you willing to except the consequences"?
"How do you know, and what bleeding consequences?
"It could kill you, are you ready to die?"
Spike stared at the little man and took a deep drag on his cigarette.
"What's to think about, just give me what I need"
Spike collected what he needed and went back to his crypt. "A little song and dance, and that should do it" He followed the instructions that was given to him and then tried to sleep. He lay awake until he decided Burbon would help him calm down and sleep.
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He woke up, full of anticipation and excitment, could it really of worked....."can I KILL?" he quickly walked from his crypt, the walk slowly turned into a run......
"I gotta bite someone" he reached the street. "People I need people", his mind screamed.
Slowly he turned his head and there in the park stood a young couple holding hand, walking together.
He smiled and slowly like cat stalking it prey, he moved towards them. The young couple saw him approach. When Spike reached them he roughly pushed the boy.
"Hey what's your problem." The boy said angrily. There was something about the stranger, that scared him, he grabbed hold of his girlfriend and slowly backed away.
Spike laughed, no pain, it felt so good....he put on his game face..now lets see the fear in their eyes....Spike smiled the excitement was overwhelming...he could hear their hearts beat faster as fear took over there bodies ............The girl screamed,
"Don't worry pet, it will be over soon." he growled at her. They started to run but it was too late, he grabed the boy and snapped his neck....this was better than sex, the feeling of power. The girl, paralysed with fear, wanting to run to get away, but unable to moved her feet or take her eyes off her dead boyfriend. ....her eyes began to widen as they shifted towards the vampire.
"I could just kill you luv but where is the fun in that." He slowly pulled her towards him grabbing her hair and crushing her lips on his -- she tried to fight, to scream, to get away from this monster, but all her efforts were useless. She could taste somthing sweet -- it was blood, her blood. His teeth had pierced her lips. The pain of the kiss was more than she could bear -- if only Jarod could help her, but he was dead -- she couldn't breath -- just before she could pass out and forget this nightmare, he released her but only for a moment his mouth moving slowing and deliberately towards her neck. Spike could feel the pulse and had already tasted her blood -- as his teeth penetrated her skin, slowly he drained her -- enjoying each mouthful like it was his first -- then her limp lifeless body dropped to the ground -- Spike roared with laughter -- he hadn't felt this good in months.
He kept walking -- feeling the warm blood flow thru his body -- people, people everywhere, who should be next? Then out of the corner of his eye he saw flashes of red, he turned to face her, It was the little witch, she was sitting down drinking. He scanned the crowd, she wasn't alone that poor excuss for a slayer was with her. He always thought Red would make a good companion -- she had an inner fire that attracted him -- and she was pleasing to look at. He looked at the slayer, imagine spending eternity with her..
"I would have to bleedin' dust myself" he shook the thoughts from his head
Then without any warning a crippling pain entered his head. He screamed, everything became a blur, except for the flashes of red. Someone was trying to help him, but all he could do was scream. Then a sharp blow hit his head....and darkness consumed him.
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Spike could hear voices. At least he wasn't dust.
"Why did you have to hit him so hard?" Willow yelled at her friend
"Well it stopped him screaming" Buffy said in her defence.
"Giles" Buffy whined, "It's only Spike, he may not of been hurting anyone but he was probably thinking about it"
Giles wiped his glasses "Well it didn't kill him and it looks like he is coming too. Buffy why don't you try and get hold of Riley again."
Willow walked over to Spike and sat tentively next to him. "Spike can you hear me?"
"Yeah, Yeah, But no need to yell Red. My head feels like it's gonna explode. What happened?"
"Don't you remember? You started screaming. Buffy and I got you back to Giles, place" Willow replied lifting a eyebrow and giving Buffy a disapproving look.
Spike smiled they didn't know he had killed they just thought the chip had malfunctioned.
"Didn't die, maybe next time I might have to pay Red a visit." He thought to himself as he let Willow pamper him
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For the first time in months Spike woke with a smile on his face. The pain had subsided and things seemed almost perfect.
" I gotta do that again" he thought to himself. The pain had been worth it. Even if it killed him the next time, he would have to do it again.
He opened his eyes, he wasn't in his crypt. He was still lying on Giles sofa, covered with a big blue blanket. As he lifted his head, he saw her. All thoughts of the previous night vanished, as he watched her, she moaned and tried to turn over. She was curled up in an arm chair, arms cradling her knees She looked so beautiful.
"Oh good your up. How are you feeling today?" Giles said as he walked down the stairs.
Spike shook his head trying to remember what Giles and the Willow had talked about earlier
" Did you get the number of the truck that hit me?"
Giles looked over at Willow who was slowly waking up. "Willow, I didn't expect to see you still here?"
"Goodmorning to you as well Giles."
"mmm Goodmorning, Willow." Giles replied he turned to Spike "We not entirely sure what happed with your chip. Riley said the other Vampires who had implants never lived long enough too see what happened. So this is quiet fascinating. Riley's trying to find out some more information and will be over later to talk to you"
"oh that's just great, I get my brains fried and have to spend time with the captain cardboard"
Willow stood up and walked over towards the kitchen and poured herself a cup of coffee." It won't be that bad Spike. We just want to make sure every thing is working right" said Willow
"You mean you want to make sure this puppy can't bite.. I know the slayer is just aching to dust me"
"I can't believe what I am about to say." Giles sat down across from Spike "Spike, it may be a good idea for you to stay here for a couple of nights."
Spike groaned, and lit a cigarette. This was working out just great. All he bleeding wanted was to visit the doc again and get juiced up. He looked over to Willow who was heating up blood for him. Maybe it won't be too bad after all.
The End?